(cartoon drawn by First Born)
I’ve been wondering if it’s possible to be rich or feel rich if you have children. I’ve concluded no, not financially. Of course I feel rich spiritually. I’ve always wanted children and I love the children I have. But there are times I wish we didn’t have to always watch every dime.
First born will be in college before we know it and I’m terrified. I’m terrified about whether or not we’ll be able to afford his college education. There’s no question that he has to go to college. How to pay for it is another matter. Even if we do find a way to pay for it, he has two other siblings that will have to go. I have about three years in between each one, so at least two will be in college at the same time.
I’ve been preparing myself mentally about returning to work. I don’t want a job, but I need to help out financially. My husband’s job is not going as well as it use to and we need a backup, as well as additional income for the additional expense we’re about to have. It’s hard. I love being around for the kids. I love picking them up from school and volunteering at their schools. I can’t always do that when I have a full time job. I have some time before I have to go back to work.
The other problem with going back to work is that I have a large gap in my resume. I don’t know if people will hire me. I can’t even remember the dates I worked at some of my previous jobs. On top of that, I don’t know what I want to do. Do I go back to law? If law, what kind of law? I use to be an Administrative Law Judge for parking tickets. It was an okay job in that it was part time, but no benefits or security. I don’t know. I really don’t.